I haven’t really announced my pregnancy on the blog yet even though I am 25 weeks now. Hell, I wasn’t even sure if I would bring it up on social media to personal Facebook friends since I was scared of disappointment again, but I did it, and I am okay with it since every life created should be a happy and celebratory moment.
I knew I wanted to try again after our miscarriage because I had this empty feeling knowing that I should have been a mother to 2 but instead I was still only a mother of 1. I was ready to try after my first period but knew I should wait a little bit longer to actually grieve and process it all. My husband wanted to wait 6 months just to be on the safe side but we kind of compromised and started in May. I then got pregnant in August.
This time when I shared, I was passed the 12-week mark so I knew that I would be out of the critical time of another miscarriage happening. Now, that didn’t necessarily mean it wouldn’t at any point thereafter; it’s just a slimmer chance of happening after 12 weeks.
And, I am still paranoid with all the can’s and cannot’s during pregnancy that OBGYN’s mention.
Like, you can’t eat lunch meat unless heated up to a certain degree unless you want possible listeria. Mind you, I still eat lunch meat, I am not THAT anal, but I do usually eat it in a grilled cheese sandwich.
Don’t sleep on your back, the weight of the uterus at the halfway point can compress a major blood vessel called the vena cava, disrupting blood flow to your baby and leaving you nauseated, dizzy, and short of breath. Now, that I am paranoid about because I have woken up on my back a few times since sleeping on my side is just not too comfortable anymore. But, I’ve heard as long as it’s not an everyday thing, you should be fine. But one can never be too cautious, especially after already losing a child.
This pregnancy is kind of bittersweet for me since she wouldn’t be possible had I not lost our second. It’s sad to think about but also gives me joy since we were able to have another which is going to be our last.
Yup, we’re having another girl. You may have seen me post it on Facebook or Instagram.
We started too late in life as I’m now 35 and my husband 40 (I blame my husband for that), so we won’t get the chance to experience having a boy, but it’s okay because we were blessed with our 2 precious girls.
We haven’t agreed on a name yet. The names I like, he doesn’t find appealing, and the 2 names he suggested have me going REALLY!? We have one in mind that he mentioned that I want to shorten, but I don’t want to announce it just yet.
And if you’re wondering how this pregnancy differed from my previous ones, it is very similar to when I was pregnant with my 1st daughter; just nausea and extreme fatigue. The second pregnancy nothing looked and sounded good. I had a hard time wanting to eat food and definitely couldn’t eat anything sweet. It tasted absolutely disgusting. I felt going by just that that I was carrying a boy, but we’ll never know since I never asked if they could tell when I had a D&C.
So just know, there is light at the end of the tunnel no matter how dark it may seem after a miscarriage. And do know that having a miscarriage doesn’t higher your chances of having another one the next time you try.
I wish you all good luck on having your rainbow baby if you’ve experienced a miscarriage at any point and are struggling with trying to process it all and conceive again.